That’s how I was that entire prep - and probably why I wasn’t as pumped as I could’ve been after my win. To me, it was finishing a journey, completing a task. I was never about turning pro anyway - I was about the process. And viewing it that way helped me get through tough times during prep. But putting the blinders on also made me miss out on some important, fulfilling aspects in my life.
My priorities at the time (in order):
work (to pay for competing)
I can’t even list friends because all my friends were fellow competitors and I counted doing cardio together as socializing ♀️
Maybe balancing my priorities and nurturing my soul a bit more would’ve allowed me to enjoy that moment as it was happening, rather than realizing the weight of the accomplishment many months later. Then again, to work that hard and achieve such goals, you kinda need blinders on. ♀️
But if I had it to do over again, I would not place competing above personal relationships - and certainly not above God (I am horrified by that). I realized this in retrospect and my later years of competing were not so empty. I’m glad I learned the lesson, but I hope you newer competitors learn it sooner than I did. Competing is a great experience, but it’s not lasting. Your fondest memories will be of friends and family - they make life worthwhile. To me, that's having it all