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Hey you. Yeess, you. How about you start practicing some self care. You know... Doing little special things for you, your health, your spirit, your well-being. Start drinking more water, eating more fruit, start a journal, pray or meditate more, stay away from things that don't benefit you, maybe start that class you've been wanting to try for some time now. You deserve it. Start a self care challenge today!
I haven't been posting my daily self cares and quoted pictures in a while, but I'm back to continue. A few things has been occurring to prevent that from happening, which in turn got me used to slacking. But I'm back, and picking up where I left off.
Tea was 1 Filled Full Garlic Cream Cheese & Red Onion stuffed flat mushroom 114cals. I never figured out if I liked mushrooms or not so when I saw this I thought I'd give it a try as it seems really nice. How wrong was I. Only managed to eat the cheese and garlic off of it. Couldn't stand the texture, taste smell and look of it after I bitten into it. Wasted calories and unknown calories eaten now as I couldn't eat it all. i felt no longer sick and like I had eaten enough but knew deep down that it wasn't so I went back and made something else which I'll post next. Really wasn't gonna restrict after the awful day I've had. BPD, anxiety and voices have been super overwhelming today. Then all that triggers my ED. I went shopping, accidentally went near the sweets isle, smelt how good they were and nervously packaged some into a cup just to then walk out the store without it as I freaked out and kept questioning myself "do you really need all that? What's the point? What good will it being just for a moments pleasure but a longer suffering of being fat and gross?" Felt so embarrassed as the staff were looking at me and I could tell they thought I wernt "all there". After a couple of hours, I decided I was going to get tea from one of my favourite Chinese cafes but they were out of my order as I arrived right before closing. instead of walking all the way home like I usually do (3miles over an hour) I decided to just get the busy and respect my body's wishes as I was so tired and run down. Just wanted to get inside asap and hide from the world. Everything felt like too much today. #mentalillness#depression#anxiety#anorexia#anorexiarecovery#edrecovery#eatingdisorder#eatingdisorderecovery#bodydysmorphic#bodydysmorphicdisorder#bodydysmorphia#foodblog#mushrooms#giantmushroom#filledfullof#flatmushroom