2016 was the year I decided to go on the most hardcore diet ever. I under ate, I over exercised, every waking moment was consisted of diet food, exercising, then hating on myself when I failed to properly maintain my hectic diet requirements. I ate under 400-500 calories daily when my body needed 1500 total. I exercised 2-3 times daily. & if I didn’t I’d hate on myself and do extra the next day to make myself feel better. Yes, I looked happy. I was more confident. I was less anxious. But at what cost? I was miserable. I was constantly hating on me. Not saying i still dont. In December I ran away from home for a bit, and slowly stopped my diet. I then began binge eating because my body didn’t handle not eating very well, and the more I ate the more I started to hate myself, and the more I hated myself the sadder i got, so i ate more. I am a sad eater. It’s a flaw, that I’m trying so hard to change. I’ve come to learn that i am Beautiful, regardless of my size. I’m slowly learning to love myself, and i’m ready to face the journey to self love again. We are all beautiful. I hope you know you are.