I'm convinced my stomach and intestines are trying to kill me. Not treading to far from the bathroom (this seems to be the trend in my life over the last few months I really need to see a doctor) so I'm painting my nails one hand at a time. Playing videos games and watching The Frakenstien Chronicles to kill time. Tomorrow will be better, it has to. #fuckingdone#intestineshateme#stomachhatesme#constellations
Not dead! So busy still with buying the house and my anxiety has been at an all time high. There been a few days where I've even needed two Klonopin. Thank the gods my psych cares about my mental state more than the taboo of prescribing benzos.
Anyway, just a random thought... I want a tattoo so badly! There's many I want but I really really want a Taurus constellation tattoo. I'm terrified of pain though. If only they could do it when I've taken my Klonopin. Lol And which version of the constellation should I get? The slight differences between them, and several others I've seen, makes it hard to decide. So yeah, just a random thought on my mind tonight. :)
Music: Wait by M83
I've never known love until I saw the stars during a moonless night.
I was on a car going back to the city when suddenly I felt the urge to open the window of the car and stared at the wide moonles cloudless light pollution-less sky. What I saw made my heart skip a few beats. I was transported into a different world all together.
I do not know how to map the stars. I can't tell you where Ursa Major is nor I can point Orion's Belt without second thoughts if you ask me. But I tell you, I have been in love with the stars ever since my father took me outside one night to tell me about the meteors and satellites and the moon.
As I was staring I couldn't help but smile not minding the other person who might have seen me and think I've gone crazy.
Tell you what, I've never known love until I saw the stars during a moonless night.
Not until I saw those pinpricks of light that reminded me of the city lights I adore the most, made me think of the freckles on a lover's body that you'd like to trace like the constellations. The school of fishes I enjoy watching when I go swimming on the ocean or the bioluminescence I tried to touch when my bestfriend and I went swimming once while watching the magnificent sunset. The Milky Way so,so naked smiling at me and immediately that Milky Way-shaped hole in my heart was filled. The heavens on this moonless night remind me of everything that I love and there is no greater indication of pure bliss than not knowing what to write for days because you are just in awe of what you've experienced. It was a different world. Like falling into the abyss. Like falling into a beautiful dream with your eyes open. It's true that we are just a planet floating in space but it is beyond beautiful to think that it's not just a planet but a million worlds gathered into your mind. For you and you alone. This post don't do justice but I know that experience was way way up there on my happy list.
P.s. Well I don't have that kind of ~camera~ so I'll just stick with this photo I took during an event.
Honestly, it was absolutely brilliant From start to finish, what a captivating and beautiful performance by both actors. I was just in awe. Hats off to ATP for sharing and helping bring awareness to ASL and the deaf community #constellations#albertatheatreprojects#yyc#atp#asl
NEW MOON : in Pisces : 17.03.18
This new moon is aligned with Chiron; aka the Wounded Healer. We need to be tender with what hurts. Forgiving with what we can, do more for others who can’t do for themselves and be compassionate with ourselves as we work through sensitive issues and life events.
Our deepest wound is bound to be exposed, a chance for us to begin to set focus to heal and grow. Mars is around to bring back some pain due to some crisis or conflict, which can be totally overwhelming.
It’s important to make sure we use a gentle touch and are sensitive to everyone's needs. Connecting to our spiritual selves can also be beneficial for helping us to heal, and we may need to address past issues or something that has been hidden from us that now becomes revealed.
If you are feeling emotionally overwhelmed, slow down, take some time to yourself to reflect, let go and make room for the new — The last few 2018 lunar calendars and more are now 50% off in the online store, get yours here: www.chiborrello.com/shop xo