A little story. 11 years ago I worked in a restaurant in Helsinki as a tequila girl, selling tequila shots. One night there was one motorcycle club´s private party at that restaurant and they wanted a tequila girl so the restaurant sent me there to sell tequila. Back then I was 50kg heavier, a lot bigger than the other tequila girls but that didn´t stop me for doing my job. But when I entered to that motorcycle club´s party all the men there started yelling at me how fat and ugly girl I am and that I shouldn´t be doing that job as a tequila girl cause I was the opposite of a sexy lady and basically I was just disgusting. They put one man to stalk me for the rest of the night, no matter where I went in that restaurant he was there behind me. I felt so bad, so ugly and I was super scared. After that night I quit my job there.
On Saturday night I was hired to sell shots in a bar and to be a sexy catwoman. I was super nervous and scared to go there! I know it may sound silly cause I do burlesque shows every week and get almost naked infront of hundreds of people. But still I was scared to go there. I was thinking that what if I´m not sexy enough or I´m too old or if they´ll start yelling at me that I`m an ugly fat lady. All those memories from 11 years ago came back to me. But I decided to go there anyway and do my job. And I´m so glad I did!! People were so nice, I felt good the whole evening and actually men were blushing, haha. It was great to realize that I´m so much more confident these day, I´ve grown up and I don´t need anyone´s approval. I am who I am and that´s enough. @nonairbrushedme #nonairbrushedme#bopo#bodypositive#catwoman#grownup#curvygirl#curvymodel#curvyfigure#lifechange#mollymoonstone#showgirl#showgirllife#lifegoals#tattooedgirls