Hello : ) I would just like to state that yes, I know I am a short chubby latina girl, and yes I know that my hair is uneven, and yes I do not care cause' I came here for a more personal reason... Wether you take time to listen to me or not, that's your decision, but I really hope you can hear me out.
Like most people, when I was growing up, I was physically, emotionally, mentally abused, neglected and seen as a sex object by many people that are supoose to care and protect you, but that never stopped me for being humble and kind. I was still a very open minded, shy, happy child. And there is nothing I wouldnt do to make anybody smile.
As I got older, everything just started getting harder and harder. And as everything felt as if it were closing in on me, I would fight everyday to keep at least my smile poking out.
I have met and lost alot of great amazing people. And I have learned so much from living just 18 years.
Sooooo, alot has happend over the last few months and, I know it's not good but, I let myself go because of it. I gained weight
I chopped my hair I let my relationship fall apart
I stopped cleaning my house
I stopped running errands
I stopped watching the finances. °
Basically, everything I loved doing, I stopped caring for.
I have come to that point in my life where I am discusted everytime I pass my reflection or even cringe everytime I hear my voice when I speak. I can't sleep because of all the negative energy running through my body and all the impurities in my mind .-. So I made a vow to myself : ) I vow to get back on track and get back to where I need to be because I am needed.
I am loved and it is not fair that I have to watch the ones i love suffer because of me.
This year I am going to love myself again and I will not let anything or anyone bring me down anymore. I will be whole