EXACTLY THREE YEARS AGO I was preparing for life to be flipped upside down and inside out. Just looking at it brings back so many emotions.
1 year earlier I had a miscarriage around 10 weeks and I was devastated that I lost my first pregnancy. That was my baby to hold and to love, but for whatever reason (she) wasn't meant to happen. I was alone at the doctors office in SD when a heart rate couldn't be found. It was so confusing because just one week prior everything was great.
I sat in my car and cried my eyes out. I called my sister crying because I didn't know what to do, feel, or think. All I could do was blame myself for what happened even though I was told otherwise. It just wasn't meant to be at that time for us.
My pregnancy with Ellie was a healthy one with no complications, but it was not easy. I had the morning sickness for 16 weeks, sleeping was horrible, I felt big all over and I wasn't active. I was scared to miscarry again and I gained about 45lbs.
It's crazy to see how much a woman's body can transform from beginning to end (~9 months) when growing a human. And how long and slow the process can be to get back to the pre-preggo body and also care for a newborn. It has certainly taken me
more than 9 months, but everyday I'm working at being healthy and fit. Once I got into a habit of daily workouts, meal prepping, portion control, and a meal replacement nutrient dense shake I felt like I was on my way to a healthier me.
I'm so grateful for my little girl and I want to see her grow up, so I owe it to her to be a healthy and energetic mom. #flashbackfriday