When in the soul of the serene disciple.. with no more Fathers to imitate, poverty is a success. It is a small thing to say the roof is gone, he has not even a house. Stars, as well as friends, are angry with the noble ruin. Saints depart in several directions... Be still - There is no longer any need of comment. It was a lucky wind that blew away his halo with his cares. A lucky sea that drowned his reputation. Here you will find neither a proverb nor a memorandum. There are no ways, no methods to admire where poverty is no achievement. His God lives in his emptiness like an affliction. What choice remains? Well, to be ordinary is not a choice. It is the usual freedom of men without visions. — Thomas Merton #digdeep#freeyourmind#followthewhiterabbit
My afternoon cup of Holiday Chai tea really got me thinking The little tag on the tea bag reads, “ CUP OF JOY. Today was the first day in several months I have taken a self love moment to reflect on my current life. I have spent these months stuffing all of my feelings down and acted out in ways that were so negative and self defeating 🤪 I have just gone through the hardest time in my emotional life. I felt ashamed of who I let myself become ... mostly because I am an inspiration and role model to so many. I am the person that so many look up to, however, sometimes, we lose sight of the things that allow us to be content with our true selves. I thought I was depressed and anxious, so I tried medication, I went to counseling, I drank WAY to much wine 🤭 stopped exercising and allowed my demons to resurface like never before!! That is a scary place my friends, but I suppose half the battle is being able to recognize these powerful emotions and kick them aside with self induced positivity!! I realize that I need to start small and be grateful about the things I do have. I took away many amazing pieces of wisdom from this phase of my journey! It wasn’t all a negative shit show, it was a LEARNING EXPERIENCE We struggle, we fight, we underestimate our abilities and strengths, and most importantly we forget to love ourselves unconditionally... our life isn’t a contest to see how much better we can make ourselves for the benefit of others, it’s about slowly picking up the damaged pieces and lovingly putting them back into the jigsaw puzzle we call life! Fuck puzzle... life is a freaking rubix cube, and sometimes no matter what you try the colours may never match🧐
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Past month and a half or so has been really busy and tiring for me, both physically and mentally. Sleep deprived, energy lost, some workouts sacrificed, but sometimes you have to simply make the effort if you really want something. That being said, I’m still here chasing them gains! Sometimes all it takes is digging a little deep and finding that last bit of fuel you have left for the day, putting it to good use, and staying positive With that, I managed to push myself on this day for 7 sets of 275 lb for reps of (6/7 sets shown here).
As one of the days where I hadn’t felt that tired in so long, it felt so good getting in that final double of the night. So to cut it short, make that second effort, you might just thank yourself later.