I wanted to ask you something: when was the first time you discovered meditation? Was it in a class or was it a more intuitive spontaneous experience? I am really genuinely interested, so please feel free to comment or send a message.
For me, I remember distinctly the feeling of my first meditation: I was maybe 13 or 14, and it was the time of summer holidays. I was in my room by myself and I though what would happen if I would just sit and meditate. Now, I'm not sure if in my mental discourse I used the word "meditate" as it wasn't really the thing among teenage girls in Serbian coutryside 18-19 years ago, and I honestly don't know how I came up with this idea. Anyway, I just sat on the floor and quited myself. Almost immediately, this feeling of vast expansion and pulsating spaciousness came over me. It was wonderful, but in a way overwhelming at the same time. I "practiced" a couple of more times in the next days and then I dropped it, for many years to come.
When I started practicing again in my adult life, in the begining I was obsessed with chasing that feeling from my teenage meditation days, but it never came - not with the same intensity anyway. Now I know that it's not about any particular experience - however wonderful or scarry. It is about the process of showing up moment to moment - no matter whether the moment holds that vast expansion or just a nagging knee pain.
P.S. I couldn't find out the maker of this amazing image, but I applaud her/him.