"We think that we must have confidence in order to do something (and this is where we are wrong)...Confidence is a PRODUCT OF ACTION, not the other way around"
As I tossed and turned in bed last night with clammy hands and with lingering residue of doubt surrounding yesterday, I just kept repeating the words that I time and time again post on my Instagram stories. "I am enough". You see, the more we tell ourselves positive reinforcements the more we believe it. And the more we fill our minds with bursts of joy, love and compassion, the closer we become to not only becoming our best selves but also becoming the person that we so fully deserve to be.
I absolutely know that I am not the only person in the world who has experienced binge eating. And there was absolutely a time where my mind would be flooded with guilt. Desire to turn back time. Burning obsession, suffocating regret. And ultimately relapse with Bulimia. But you see, committing to recovery and committing to freedom from addiction comes with many things. And top of that list is forgiveness.
Do you really believe that if every time you stumble (which you undoubtedly will - you are human) that guilt, restriction, self loathing and unhappiness will make it better? Do you really think pounding yourself with insults is what you DESERVE? If I told you that the power was absolutely in your hands to totally forgive yourself and love yourself anyway; would you believe me? Because it's certainly the truth.
So as I write this, with absolutely no residue of guilt from my unwanted binge. Absolutely no desire to turn back time, but with absolutely every intention of having a great day and to use this as a simple learning tool, I hope that I can stand as a benchmark for you, too. To show you that recovery from an eating disorder; or any type of mental illness is absolutely 100% possible. That your recovery journey is not a straight line but instead an uphill battle of learning what equates to cultivating your own story of success. I urge you to find courage and solace in the knowledge that you are not alone. #youareenough
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