The past week has been really hard on me. I’ve been struggling with anxiety for four years now and many times I’ve had to take a few days off to recover from a big panic attack, but at the end of the day, it always went away quickly. Now for the past week, I’ve been unable to eat properly, get out of the house for too long, take my car, go to work, go see my parents, my family and it’s just been a horrible pile of “can’t do this or can’t do that” that’s been piling up and since I’m not doing anything to prove myself wrong, I start believing it. Now I’m rational enough to know this and I’m rational enough to see that the second I prove myself (my brain) that I can do it, I’ll be ok, but it’s a hard step to take, the more I wait to take it, the more it generates anxiety and digs a whole in my true self who just wants to live. I started reading the Power of the Now by Eckhart Tolle and he explains that we are controlled by our thoughts (that’s something that all anxiety warriors know), but that these thoughts are not us. Our true-self is to be found when our head is clear, in that tiny moment between two thoughts where nothing passes through your mind; when your mind is clear. The goal of meditation and mindfulness exercices are to bring you back to your true-self and that picture right here well demonstrates this phenomenon. It was taken two days ago, even though the previous and following hours were horrible, I connected to myself and was happy for a moment. So I encourage you guys to read that book or try finding yourself in your thoughts, every little happy moment counts. -
One of my favorite photos ever! The day a bunch of us had #zenbands on and met #superwoman in #centralpark . We asked her if she wanted a ZENBand, she said YES, and this magical photo happened. I'm reminded of that quote- "The creative adult is the child who survived." Dare to be different and think creatively. We are told to work out our arms, legs, abs..., well, I'm here to tell you to work out your #imagination too. Especially as an adult- it can be life-saving and , oh, so freeing.