Yesterday I had my appointment with the new cardiologist (the heart electrician) they scheduled my surgery for May 11th. I really didn’t expect it to be so soon. The nurse apologized for it being scheduled so far out & all I was thinking was that I wish it was 6 months or longer away. I’ve never had any surgery before so I’m really terrified about it. I was hoping at my appointment he’d say that it didn’t look bad & I wouldn’t need the surgery, but that’s not how it went. I’m really worried & scared. I always assume the worst, so that doesn’t really help. The doctor, (Dr Kok) & yes, it’s pronounced “cock” & I’m super immature & think that’s hilarious. He said that it’s a very successful surgery & I want to believe him, but then part of me is like, have you ever had anyone die? He said, no. So then I’m like, I’m gonna be the first one. I know it lol. If you all could send some positive thoughts/prayers (whatever you’re into) my way from now until & especially on May 11th I would greatly appreciate it!