j e s s i c a w i l d e n .com (@jessica_wilden)

I have been putting off writing this all day... sometimes the look back is a perfect blend of joy and regret. (Yes, this is a novel, prepare yourself!)
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If you know me at all, I'm not really a "sugar coating" it kind of girl. Most of the times I have gotten in trouble in my friendships have been by saying too much, not saying too little.. and food has emotional ties doesn't it? We don't want it to, we want to only eat what we need, or only the healthy choices, but honestly it's easy to eat to celebrate, eat when you're sad, and eat because you are bored.
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When I was in high school, I knew eating junk affected me, but I really couldn't figure it out. I lived on Taco Bell and a high metabolism, so it really didn't matter to me then. Until I would hit the ground because of chest pains I could barely handle. That was a fun year.
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After getting married we ate hot pockets and other microwave foods because it was easy! After my first child the chubby weight just wouldn't go away, and to tell you the whole story would involve looking at that toilet and hoping putting my finger down my throat would cure it. It didn't. It just shot my immune system and made me feel hopeless. Shame would wash over me as I thought about my little baby girl ever knowing what I thought of myself.
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Often I would go to bed with pain shooting through my abdomen. Living under a heating pad just seemed to be normal way of life. Diet pills or only drinking liquids were fads that I tried in order to get a grip. The feeling of hopelessness in feeling healthy let alone being thin was so heavy it felt as though I was pounding into the ground further and further.
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IBS he said. A horribly embarrassing diagnosis with an expensive pill that helped me be able to sleep through the pain at night. I knew it was a bandaid, I still had a digestive system that didn't work. I hated it.
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As time went on, I decided to take gluten out of my diet. The change was astounding. I no longer needed the medicine! I found staples that worked just as easily to fill my pantry and fridge with.
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Years have gone by, and slowly I have learned what a better choice real whole foods are and (keep reading in comments)...

hiroaki.e🔥 (@hirooo.e920)

picture of 5month.



楽しかった!
次のビックイベントは3月!
めっちゃ楽しみ😎🔥


#5month #f4f #instagood #lovemygirls #lifewithrina #goprocouple #0220.

Land of Wild Designs Photog (@landofwilddesigns)

Sisters ... I asked them to hold each other and they looked at me like I was crazy then we got this shot! I just love these two! I am so glad I am getting these #edited #finally! They have been sitting in my #workflow for far too long.
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Jessica Wilson (@welliemum)

Momma ... It's bright ... Love my girls. The tulips were quite lovely today #dallasarboretum #tulips #cheeryflowers #lovemygirls

Asami Yoshihara (@asmyshr)

先ほど、幼稚園からずっと仲良しでもあり幼なじみでもあるちゃんしーがきてくれました👭🌈
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これから暖かくなって露出も増える時期なので、つるつるの脇を手に入れて、男性を誘惑しましょ😘意外と男性は、女の子の脇をチェックしてますよ?笑
「他のサロンで何回やっても結果が出ない」「脇を毎日剃るのが面倒くさい」で悩んでいる人がいたらぜひご相談くださいね🙏💕
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Kennetha Weaver (@kennethaweaver)

God knew I needed a smile. My girls had no idea but God worked through them. They showed up tonight with the sweetest surprise!! #flowersandmyfavoritechocolates #lovemygirls #weavergirlsarethebest

Jillian Gawlikowski (@jrg1524)

Homeschooling is so awesome. Even when the baby tears the room apart. #lovemygirls #lovemyfamily #findingtheblessingsinthemess

Presslogic Girls 女生日常 (@girls.presslogic)

姐認老了~期待回家馬上睡!
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Porsche Ghani (@porscheebelikee)

Dinner date with all my favorite seaaaastaaarrrrrrsss💕👩🏻‍⚕️👩🏻‍⚕️👩🏻‍⚕️👩🏻‍⚕️👭 #nursingsisters #wefoundeachotherforareason #lovemygirls @jennncollins @paulettes88 @aaaiiooo

Kristen (@kristen.fletcher)

At times I forget how my she look like me...and then we take a pic together!!! #lovemygirls #lovemykids #minime #bestself #dancemom
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