SWIPE For the people who wage a war with the demons inside their head. You are not alone. You never walk alone - @beeteeyass
If you are someone who is/knows someone affected by #mentalillness#depression#suicidalthoughts then PLEASE do read.
These are not my words. They were said to me by someone (#cutie) I found through this very IG account of mine. She wrote this wall of text partly for me but more so for a friend of mine with suicidal thoughts on 12th of this month, 4 days after my #SZ passed away
I've heard the shade that people throw at diagnosed people taking meds but in a lot of cases they help them. Like really help them. I've heard that some people can't even get out of bed without them. Seems very dependent but aren't we a dependent on something or the other? You with your writing and fan account, him with his meds. Doesn't really do any good to judge and differentiate between people's incentives in life. It really is what keeps people going on most days. And they usually change the dosages as time passes. Tell him not to quit cold turkey. That's when the shitstorm hits. You're supposed to wean him off of it if he wants to quit it so bad. Typical junkie behaviour. Wake up one day and get it into your head that you're pathetic and weak for having to stoop so low and owe your life to these drugs, so you'll just take the high road and become clean in one day? Very noble if not naive. Y'know what? You _do_ owe your life to these drugs. Without it your parents would probably have been holding your memorial anniversary by this year.
Fuck it dude.
Death is not the romanticized freedom and untethered feeling and bliss that these stupid movies make it out to be. It's your cold, dead body in rigor mortis covered in your shit and piss on your bathroom floor, found by your parents after you wouldn't open your door one morning. It's the regret in your siblings' every action in the entire day for denying you something material or having this bullshit idea of having to live their life for both of you because hey you died too young and missed out on too much. It's that constant doubt in your father's heart on where he failed you.