Raising Bluerays This baby was born on the worse day of Katrina. We both nearly died. For 10 days, the 2 of us fought 4 our lives, holding on 2 the love we had between ourselves 2 help us survive. I agreed 2 breast feed her 4 6 wks b4 putting her on formula. She became deathly ill shortly thereafter. These days, I'm knowledgeable from the poison in formula. Back then, I was clueless.
Since the beginnin, she's been takin in my painful love. Drinking poison & dealin w/emotional poison created a helluva concoction 4 this beauty 2 survive.
I've always felt guilty 4 dumpin her Dad. Not bad enough 2 get back. But guilty enough 4 me 2 curse the reality we brought 2 ourselves. Imagine the emotional weight the both of us put on this baby girl.
By the time I birthed her brother, I promised both of my babies & God that I wouldn't give up on a union again. That's how I ended up in this 10yr crazy ass love circle. For 10 yrs, I allowed my King's family 2 treat both me & my daughter like we were misfits, while they praised my son & King. Imagine growing up feeling that people hate u.
Baby girl is a triple time Virgo. So hiding emotions & over using the logical brain is her thing. For yrs, she had 5 separate doctors & a pediatrician.
I was pretty dead emotionally. Just as emotionally checked out as she was. But, I always explained the psychology behind her experiences. Guiding her 2 make peace & make sense of her current reality. Always.
These days, she's A/B honor roll, honors classes & I'm beyond proud. As a blueray child, intellect is 2nd nature. Her brain power paired w/my Gemini Mercury stemmed guidance makes my baby a total beast! She could really inform so many w/her refreshing insight. Perhaps 1 day she will.
I've got someone to teach me d shaku shuku dance..vid coming soon, wait on it...so one of my friends told me that i take n post too many photos, that i should be prosecuted as well...my lovely friends, is this accurate?...still swipe
‘ I will tell you, my daughter of your worth not your beauty everyday. Your beauty is a given, every being is born beautiful knowing your worth can save your life. Raising you on beauty alone you will be starved. You will be raw. You will be weak. an easy stomach. always in need of someone telling you how beautiful you are. —- emotional nutrition | by @nayyirah.waheed #Repost@afroellemag