Feeling so freakin WRONG today and to not receive feedbacks/word yes or not doesn't help. Have sth SERIOUS to write off (!)
I would say there's a HUGE difference between writing in general about Recovery and showing ourselves with honesty on here.
I would say there's a RELEVANT difference between posting just when super pretty, posing in the most cute Cafè and saying that Recovery is all about smiles, fun and milkshakes, and sharing instead a shoot while not feeling good with your body but walking at the park with your donnie #throwback
I would add there's a MEANINGFUL difference between saying "I'm gonna do it" and to do it for real. We are not what we say we will do, we are what we do. Right here. Right now.
That's the reason why I write and share with you my hard times as well. That's why sometimes I even ask for help, just like yesterday which has been a mess. I've had a pretty long (!) extremely positive period and an afternoon/evening break down. And, GOSH. I'm not ashamed to write it off Did I kill anybody? Should I be judged for that? I don't think so. I'm human. I'm recovering. I make misteakes as anybody else and my days are not always "pink and flowers" That's life, that's reality.
To write great quotes and to get a thousand likes for fabulous places and food plates is (let me say) easy peasy. To show the real us and the truth of our battle, not so much. But I would feel a liar to say that it's always everything funny and peaceful; I rather to be clear and to say: yes guys, I fell yesterday because of this and that; today I'm gonna try to improve
Recovery is a journey and a mess. We're not a mess, we're BRAVE for TRYING Or at least I thought so before sharing the last post: I really feel like everything I have to show is the positive side But I can't, and I won't. That's to me the difference between faking the fight, and make it real.
Just gave to charity a sh*t load of too tight clothes, size 0 dresses, trousers and so on. And feeling good. That's to me the best rewin I would really like to know your opinion about that my #edfamily and I hope I was wrong about the previous post I wish you a great Sunday: enjoy it