Not sure if I can make this better or even at all but, brother, you are an AMAZING person bro. I know it hard and I'm not gonna pretend I know what your going through because I don't . Idk what kind pain you must be feeling and my words may not help alot but through God I know there's hope, I know God will do right with all of us. He is the one that'll save us all from this twisted world. I'll forever hold Christina in my heart and soul forever. I never met her but slowing learning about her, I am amazed by her in many ways. She's awesome dude! My way in honoring her, in video games, it's my way of saying "I wish we met" but I'll honor her and keep her Legacy going. Love you bro. Team Grimmie loves you very much man.
2 Corinthians 12:9-10
9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.10 That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.