This is schizophrenia. This is the face of exhaustion. This is the face of sleepless nights due to screaming in your head. To waking at the slightest noise and being sure some evil force is in your house. This is having panic attacks when the bin men take the bins because you were sure it was gunshots and were just waiting for the screams. This is constantly checking on your child to make sure the images that were put in your head aren't reality. This is letting yourself feel everything when said child is napping so that they don't pick up on your emotions etc. Sometimes just hiding your struggle is enough to make you want to sleep for a week. But you have to remember better times are possible and are more than likely ahead of you. This, is schizophrenia. I am not a mass murderer. I am not a home for multiple personalities. I do not rave. I am withdrawn. I am quiet. I am more than my illness. I am human.
Sorry I haven't been my normal crazy self lately yesterday I found out some devastating news that could potentially chance my life it's so nice to know my true friends are here for me I'm of course training as hard as I can and nothing will stop that My mum always was the bravest woman I know and now It's my turn to be as strong as she was I will still post my fitness journey everyday and be spreading the love #friends#friendsthroughthickandthin#friendforever#whyme#itsnotfair#timetobebrave#imnotaquitter