It's been exactly one year since we decided to be together. It's been over a year since we met and started to get to know one another. It's been 6 months since I completely fell so deeply in love with you. It's been 5 months since I discovered your past and all the things you've hidden from me. It's been almost 3 months since you told me you're no longer in love with me, and almost 3 months since I discovered you broke up with me just to try to sleep with someone. And it's been since January 2nd since you last spoke to me. But today is our 1 year anniversary. I had so many people tell me to move on and find someone who would treat me better than you have, but I couldn't stop loving you. No matter how badly I wanted to move on from you, I couldn't. Even now, I still text your phone asking why you abandoned me like you promised you wouldn't. Everything you promised me, you broke. You promised me forever, too. I guess it's obvious now that everything you've ever told me, promises you made to me, was all a lie. All of it. There isn't one thing you told me you'd never do to me that you didn't end up doing. You fucked up my self-esteem, you destroyed me mentally and emotionally, but I still never gave up on you. I kept all of my promises. I'm still here... I've been here. All this time. When I told you "I love you. I promise, forever", I meant it. Unfortunately I still do. But since today is our 1 year anniversary and I'm celebrating it without you (wearing the sweater you gave me and doing my makeup like you told me you like it), I guess the only thing left to do is say goodbye. These past 3 months have been the worst, and being without you left a scar that may never go away. I don't know yet. I feel as if a chunk of who I am is missing because you're no longer in my life. I still cry over you, but I'm done doing that. I still love you, and I do promise I forever will, but I finally need to move on.