@lilmoonchildd has started the #insideoutchallenge to help end the stigma on mental illness.
When i thought about this and my experience with depression and anxiety this was the first thing that came to mind, a dark scarred hand trying to drag me down. I always refer to my depression as my dark days and every now and then they take over, its becoming less frequent but its something ill have to live with it for the rest of my life. I was bullied for most of elementary school and this involved being ignored and shut out which caused a lot of anxiety in social situations whenever im meeting new people or when im with more than 1 friend, theres a constant fear that they might leave me.
It would be easier, not just for myself, but for everyone struggling if they could just be open about how they feel and what they go through. The best thing to discover, is that youre not as alone as you thought.
This was not what I had originally planned for today's look but last night I ran across the #insideoutchallenge and decided I just had to do it. The inside out challenge is to raise mental illness awareness and to portray what you feel on the inside out. One side of my face is what everyone sees the other is what they don't see.
As most people know I have had depression and Anxiety for almost my whole life and was officially diagnosed with bipolar disorder, depression and several anxiety disorders when I was 14. I was in and out of clinics for anorexia, self harm, and suicide attempts.
So now that you have a bit of a back story let's jump into explaining why I chose this look. I did the sunken eyes and cheeks to represent anorexia and the terrible sickness that it is. The black eyes, black lips and black eyebrows for the deep darkness that surrounds you with depression. Darkness just eats you from the inside out, it consumes you and everything around you. The ghostly white skin not only for what anorexia does to you But because when you deal with mental illness you almost feel like a ghost just floating through life, you don't feel like you belong here. And the smile cut is for putting on a fake smile almost a mask so no one around you asks you if you are okay and so no one worries or just so no one knows your secret. It also represents self harm in general. The stitches are for feeling like you can not talk to anyone about it because you don't want to be that friend that only talks about being depressed or that you just feel like no one will understand. And the running mascara is for all the tears that are cried wheather people see it or not. #muawannabe#makeuphorder #wannabemua#makeupaddict #makeuplover#makeuplooks#mentalillnessawareness#mentalhealth#mentalillness#beautyguru#beautyinfuencer#lipsticklover#metalchick#metalbabe#alternativechick#alternativemodel#girlswithstretchedears#tattooedbabes#tattooedmodel
Dinner is done, dishes are done, face mask is on this is the avocado and oatmeal face mask in a tube by @freemanbeauty - I picked it up at my local supermarket and it works so well! Nothing better than looking like an alien on a Sunday afternoon