Okay, so I’m not usually a person that writes deep and meaningful captions but here’s the last one for a while. Cause I wanna start the new year off fresh. As many of my friends know, I am a person who has horrible and I mean HORRIBLE self confidence. I’ve never been happy with my appearance, my body, etc. I hate going anywhere w/o makeup cause I don’t feel “pretty.” That’s why I never post pictures of me without makeup 99.9% of the time. And even when I do have makeup on, I still have self confidence issues but it’s at a more “stable” level I guess you can say. And I also guess you can say that my worst enemy this year, was myself. So, my New Years resolution is to gain self confidence w/ AND w/o makeup. Cause I need to start having self love for myself, instead of self hate 24/7. It’s not healthy for myself or anyone else for that matter. Thats all that I wish 2018 will bring me, for now and beyond. - (I have makeup in the first pic, and in the second one, I don’t. The second one was taken a couple of months ago tho.) -
Goodbye to 2017, goodbye to my first love, goodbye to all my mistakes, and goodbye to all the hardships. Thank you for the most difficult yet important year of my life. Here’s to ‘18.
Here’s two pictures for me to explain something. I personally prefer dressing like I do In the first picture but I only feel like I look pretty when I’m dressed like I am in the second picture. And I always have a constant battle with myself. Should I dress how i like to on a normal basis or should I dress up “pretty.” And I never know to be really honest. When I dress up like I do in the first picture, people think I am “emo,” and when I dress up like I do in the second one, People actually look at me and shii. And I don’t feel like myself when I do, I feel off but that’s the only time I feel the most confident. I don’t know, y’all may think I’m just over thinking or something but this is honestly something that’s been bugging me for a while. I just wanna feel like myself. Ya know?