Edit: OMG I JUST HAD A THOUGHT! With so many people suffering and glued to their suffering, limiting their role in society as a highly functional, powerful, impactful souce of energy and Light to fight the darkness of the world, it is like all the drugs that we're given, all the doors we have to keep knockin on, all the processed junk and chemicals they keep feeding us, all the bright lights, the lines, the cubicles, the noise, the expectations, the stress, it all keeps us spinning on our wheels so as to not be able to focus and partake in raising the collective consciousness! They know those drugs don't actually heal, they just numb enough! They know therapy is expensive as hell and the one's who need it the most can't afford it because of the condition which is the therapy for which they seek! The more sick you are and struggling/suffering, the less you're able to try focus all your energy/attention/power/love on all the nasty shit that is going on in the world! They want to keep us sick! They want to keep all the money, power, control for themselves, so the sicker we are the better it is for them! DAMN! BUT US EMPATHS AND FEELERS AND LIGHTWORKERS WHO CAN FEEL THE ENERGIES KNOW THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG. Call me crazy, but this thought that just came in my head is so clear even if I'm unable to articulate as poignantly, it makes so much sense! This might be too esoteric for most to comprehend but if you think about it, if the army of us as a whole was in the best health possible, which is entirely possible for each person to be provided for, where would that leave all the agencies that profit off our illnesses? They don't want kum-ba-ya! They want yachts and mansions and multi-million dollar machines and a
Lookie that! Signs are everywhere I tell ya! It all tells me that everything is unfolding just as it's meant to and that everything is working in our favor! Keep ya head up and keep moving with the process. It will lead you exactly to where you are meant to go
. @Regrann from @shamanic_queen173 - @Regrann from @doreenvirtue - I can feel the strong support and compassion coming from Archangel Michael to prop you up from low energy or lagging faith. You've been through some intense times lately, and you may be feeling weary. Fortunately, you had the presence of mind to pray for help, and God has sent Archangel Michael to your side.
This mighty angel is boosting your energy levels and confidence, and encouraging you to keep going. Archangel Michael is also helping you to stay optimistic, even in the face of disappointments.
He shows me a vision of you plugging into God's divine recharging energy, to revive your "batteries." He will help you to get a good night's sleep, and to focus upon your strengths and successes. I also see Archangel Michael shielding and protecting you from those who would criticize you or hurt your feelings.
Archangel Michael can be with you and everyone else who needs him simultaneously, so you needn't worry that you're "bothering" him. Like God, Archangel Michael is unlimited energy, which is why he can so easily boost your own energy right now.
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Got meself in quite a pickle . Will find my way back to the light!
I am strong.
I can do this.
You are strong.
You can do this.
Sorry this is my sink or swim period. Can't quite entertain posting cute shit or anything else of the matter right meow. My livelihood and health are needing all my attention at the moment and so I must give them all my care. Maybe I will start another page solely for the anxiety journey, I dunno. I wonder if I should start some sort of foundation to bring more awareness to mental health issues at large? And to have a platform. Because having so much experience in so many ways that I've suffered I understand this stuff quite a bit! I don't understand WHY everything I've tried up to this point hasn't worked yet but maybe that alone is telling me this is something I should embark on. I dunno, I try to make sense of it. There are way too many people who suffer from a variety of mental health issues and don't get/seek help because of stigma, fear, uncertainty, shame, embarassment, and a slew of other reasons. Or the help is just not sufficient, because it's so different with each individual and the help that meets it.
It's complex and complicated and there really isn't a one right or easy answer.
Life becomes hindered in so many ways; and it impacts every relationship in your life. Can't work. Can't get help. Can't explain it to anyone. And the days turn into months and the months turn into years. I KNOW!
All I know is that I need to continue on this journey until completion. And that is to fully heal myself from this crippling anxiety. And to share my journey so others know they are not alone. Such important work! I know I can! With the right assistance and support, I know there is help available! I am positively sure of this . And I will not not give up! I am so fucking determined now!
Thanks you guys! It feels nice to get some fresh air I toldya I was getting outside #littleacheivements ☆ f #socialanxiety in da booty. Hang on, cuz imma get through this. What I've noticed is that the more I speak openly about this, the more people come out from the shadows as well. And it doesn't look like anything you might think it does pretty amazing to see actually! We can all get through this together!
Ok. And with this message I am going to pry myself out of bed for the first time in days and go outside. I was about to shut my eyes and sleep some more but I will get up. I will get up. I will go outside. I will keep trying. I will rise
I desperately need a job at this point. But #socialanxiety. Know what I mean? Starting to freak out a bit haha. This is singlehandedly the most frustrating, challenging, maddening thing I've ever had to experience in my life. And it's not that I don't know how to love. And it's not that I'm not a positive person. And it's not that I'm not grateful. For everything. Even this. And it's not that I'm not full of creativity and potential value and worth. And it's not that I'm not smart as shit. It's just that I have a thing that causes incredible limitations in my life that I can't even explain. And it consumes you. And it's draining. And all I ask is for someone to see the potential in me and risk it. Because I'm worth it. Haha I just need a job but I have #socialanxiety and I'm about to get evicted from my place but I have #socialanxiety and I have no one to turn to. So universe, there it is. Maybe an honest approach will bring the help that I need. Maybe someone is watching and will be able to be of some support somehow. That would be amazing
And to make it a little clearer: There are many levels of #socialanxiety. Mine is at the high end can't even visit the mom, that's gotta be the worst feeling ever . MUST HEAL. MUST GET THROUGH THIS. THIS IS IMPORTANT. TIME IS RUNNING OUT
I AM THE REALEST MUTHFUCKA I KNOW
I AM STRONG FOR THIS
I AM STRONG TO BE ABLE TO ENDURE THIS
I AM STRONG TO SHOW MY VULNERABILITES AND TO SHOW ALL MY HUMAN SIDES
I AM STRONG
AND I AM WORTHY
AND I WILL GET THROUGH THIS
THANK YOU FOR YOUR LOVE AND SUPPORT EVERYONE. IT REALLY MEANS SO MUCH
That it's like breathing life back into a person. And it could literally mean everything.
I suffer from #socialanxiety. And I need money/job. But I can't just go out and get a job. And I'm late on rent x4. And I need a job/money. But I can't just work any job. But I need money/work. So I can keep my place. Eat. I suffer from #socialanxiety. And I need a job and money but I can't work any job. But I'm late on rent and I have #socialanxiety but I can't get a job because I have #socialanxiety. Who is able to help? Who do I ask for help? Need a job and I have #socialanxiety. Need food and late on rent. I have #socialanxiety. Can't just go out and get a job I have #socialanxiety. So what am I to do? Will you give me a job? I am late on rent #socialanxiety food eat home work mental health issues real problems serious not a joke I'm not crazy just have #simplelife#breakingpoint#urgent#crisis#mentalhealth#realissues#slipping I just need someone to give me a chance to get back on my feet again. It's been a rough year.
@Regrann from @lost_nowhere - Like the moon, we go in phases. As we embrace the power of this full moon, set your intentions, both what you wish to let go and what you manifest to achieve. Whatever is coming for you is for your greater good. So be welcome to receiving it with open arms and an open heart #namaste#lostnowhere#fullmoon#Regrann
@Regrann from @lost_nowhere - So don't worry about the pain you feel today, because very soon it will bring forth strength and understanding. Stay strong, meditate and clear your mind and focus on the good. Every negative can be turned into a positive
Seeking help and getting help are so different. Sorry breaking point breaking point
If you are suffering from #socialanxiety like I do and need to talk, dm me. I understand.
@Regrann from @thepaintedbrain - "54% of people 'think of #depression as a sign of personal or emotional weakness.' A 2002 survey found 17% of people "see taking medications (for problems with emotions, nerves, or mental health) as a sign of weakness. In 2004, a study found that 15% of respondents "see #therapy as a sign of character weakness. "There's some major #stigma that surrounds anything to do with #mentalhealth." @ParkerMolloy
I HAVE TO keep speaking about it. This is important too.
We can fight for animal rights.
We can speak up for veganism.
We feed the homeless
But there are millions of people who also suffer from mental illnesses within these borders as well. And it's just as significant and urgent.
I don't post selfies lying on a sunny beach because I'm wrapped up inside my comforter in my bed day in and day out on the brink of getting evicted wondering how I'm going to crawl out of this one ahaha