Capturing the unique ways people hold themselves from as close as possible is basically my shooting style. Everyone has these personal little gestures and reactions that almost instantly disappear when it’s time to take a photo. Finding how to conduct myself in a way that they feel willing to have them captured is my goal. The cameras I use and how close I like to be make it harder, not easier. It’s not the easiest way to capture fleeting moments. I feel the trade off in maybe missing so many shots I could have gotten, is real intimacy in the ones that exist.
This is Monique on the night we met. I loved how she rested her finger on her open mouth and I’m grateful she let me capture it as mostly a stranger from only a few feet away.
Pentax67 | Kodak tri-x | Indie Film Lab
I have a few new workshops to announce but they aren’t really workshops. I’m not sure how much I believe in teaching someone how to be a better artist. My own personal journey has been a mess and for all I know anything that might be true for me would be completely untrue for someone attending. For that reason I like to treat them as in-person print sales. Getting prints to people is what makes me feel good and it’s what I’m pursuing in as many ways as I can. If you’d like to read the workshop description there is a link to it in my story and bio.
I’ll be in Vancouver in May and Madrid in October. If you’d like to attend I’d love to have you. I also understand that the 500-600 range is too much for some people and I respect that. I’m also hoping to be able to do a short presentation and in person print sales in the same cities for much less. A way to just hang out and meet whoever and still support myself. It’s emotionally challenging for me to travel and shoot alone. I’m so grateful for the support I’ve had doing it and the friends I’ve made along the way.
Here are a few film frames of Aya that I made the first time I taught solo in Amsterdam. #kodakfilm#indiefilmlab
When my niece Sapphire died I was stuck in California. The soonest flight home I could get was more than a day away. The morning of what was sure to be one of the worst days of my life I got a call from Olesya. She told me she was coming to get me and that I wouldn’t be alone until I got on the plane. It was one of the worst days of my life, and in another sense, one of the best. I had someone there who couldn’t make anything better, but wasn’t going to let me be alone. To me it’s one of the most meaningful experiences of being alive. To share people and art that can’t fix anything, but can let us know we aren’t alone.
Here’s to you Olesya for being one of the best friends I could hope for. Here’s to you Sapphire for helping me feel so much in so little time. Here’s to you light sensitive silver on gelatin for giving me a means to create. And here’s to you for sharing it all with me. In love and death. #kodakfilm#indiefilmlab
I have a lot of work that means so much to me that I’ve never shared online. Two of my three most personally significant images I’ve made I’ve never posted. I don’t mind, sometimes I can just tell it just doesn’t belong here. I’ve been working on how I want to share it. It’s in person, and it’s in print. It’s work that won’t be able to be seen online, ever. Excited to tell you more soon. #iaminhere
I like being photographed, it makes me uncomfortable. Shooting makes me uncomfortable too. Trying to make my work feel like I want it to makes me uncomfortable. Hardly anything I’ve wanted art to be for me has been about comfort.
It’s helpful to sit there and worry about my hairline and belly and how I hope the photographer captures me in a way that feels personal and emotional. I carry that with me when I’m back behind the lens.
Make a point of uploading something you love that won’t perform well on social media. Post it and the wrong time of day. Remind yourself that you need to feel it more than you need them to feel it. Secretly hope everyone loves it anyway. #kodakfilm#indiefilmlab
Balance. Never my strongest suit.
I’m so honored/humbled and honestly relieved that the workshop I announced with with @micmojo yesterday is already more than half sold. Doing anything for money is still an emotional challenge for me and I’m convinced no one will sign up for anything I do when it comes time to announce them. I’ve been fortunate to have had such kind people at the events I’ve put on and I’m always excited to meet a new group. I’m continually looking to make the events a little better and a little more personal. Something important to me right now is getting printed work to people. Everyone that comes to this workshop will be getting a signed print from both Jan and I, as well as a tin with 30 mini prints.
Something I’d like to work more on, and the purpose of this post is gender diversity at the workshops. I’ve experienced both extremes. When I taught in Amsterdam it was to 90% men, when I taught in Vancouver it was to 90% women. I’m fascinated by the group makeup but generally more fulfilled when it’s diverse. I don’t know the best way to facilitate this but I want to try. Currently we have only one seat sold in Ibiza to a woman. I talked to Jan and Stephanie and we would like to give a window for this to change. As of right now we are only going to sell one more male spot before suspending signups for men for 2 months. In this time we will try and fill the remaining seats with female/trans/non-binary attendees. If that doesn’t work we will reopen registration to everyone sometime in May. I’ve never tried something like this and I don’t know if this is the best way to go about it, but I do know I appreciate the energy a more diverse group brings. So, here’s to trying. Links to sign up are in bio.
If you have any feedback on this in general I’d be interested in hearing it. #kodakfilm#indiefilmlab
The sun is finally out in Portland. Winter has felt so long and I haven’t even been here for all of it. In related news I found out I have to move and the end of April and I’m not sure what to do. Stay in Portland? Back to Utah? Travel for a bit? Help. #kodakfilm#indiefilmlab
*workshop - Ibiza - Oct 18* @micmojo is one of my favorite photographers who became one of my best friends. We met making a show called “film” and have been close ever since. We’ve taught 3 workshops together and I can honestly say they are some of the happiest times of my life. I’m thrilled to be teaming up with Jan (and wife Stephanie and baby Zoe!) this time in Ibiza, Spain on Oct 4-6. If you’d like to join us follow the link in my bio or story.
6 of 14 spots available
Taking off. LAX to PDX.
It’s been such a wonderful, uplifting, productive and artistic 2 weeks. I’m planning on returning soon to try out a new “workshop” format. It will be an in-person print sale with a day spent creating art you can hold while collaborating with artists of different disciplines. Details soon. #kodakfilm#indiefilmlab
It’s an unbelievably special feeling to meet someone striving to make something personal because they “have to”. @emmaportner moves like she has to and it feels uniquely her to observe. I’m so grateful for the short collaboration and can’t wait to see the film.
I just had such a beautiful week at @yeahfieldtrip. I’m so full of gratitude for the beautiful friends and artists in my life. I only took a camera out once for about five minutes to make this photo of my friends Nirit and Avigail from @pictime_us. Headed back to LA now and home to Portland soon.
Headed up El Capitan Canyon for @yeahfieldtrip. 3rd year in a row. Much more consistency than I’ve had with most things in my life. Other than shaking my leg and loving juice. I need to make something that I love again soon. Something that scares me or teaches me. #kodakfilm#indiefilmlab
There was the most uniquely colored light filtering in through the smoke and I only had black and white film. It doesn’t matter, nothing cosmically means anything. It was still beautiful, just not the kind of beautiful I wanted it to be. Art. Life. Etc.. #kodakfilm#indiefilmlab