One more thing... it kinda pisses me off when people say they have it worse than you... like ok you probably do but just because I told you the story, doesn't mean I told you the whole thing... so you want to know everything huh? Well here: when I started elementary school I had no friends, I was always bullied and always pushed around, people would call me fat and stupid and that I couldn't be who I wanted to be, then people who I thought were my friends used me to do things to get into trouble then blamed me, I even got in a fight with one of my bully's (and won) then I finally got a friend and she was my best friend then moved away from me in 3rd grade and I didn't have friends again, then my mom got cancer and I was devastated, at the same time my dad left and my mom was also pregnant with my little brother who almost died at birth, I felt so alone, I'd cry everyday wanting them back and the fact my mom almost died, she's good now but it still leaves a mark, and to this day 9 years ago, my dad is still gone and I miss him so much but he doesn't listen, you'd think I'd be use to it but the thing is I shouldn't be use to that, in middle school I was always caught up in drama and bs I shouldn't even in but I finally got friends, going into high school I had about 6 friends to this day is now 3 and I love them with all my heart but everything in the past and keeping it inside well I had a break down in 10th grade with horrible depression and anxiety, I missed so many days of school and had to lie saying I was sick when really I felt like if I stepped foot in that building I'd instantly die a painful death... it was torture... and that's not even the full story...
I get it... I totally get it... it's easier to say that you're fine when you're not fine, it's easier to lie about it but done with it... I've had so much pressure on me for so long, so much stress, people not listening to me or even thinking about me, you know what I've been doing all summer? Not being with my friends cause I'm always stuck in this stupid house having to be an "adult" when I should be having the best summer ever... just being treated like my feelings don't matter and people taking it out on me... I've been so stressed to the point I just want to scream and through things out the window and it feels like my head is gonna explode and people just push me to the extreme then get mad when I snap back it's just so frustrating I want to break down a wall... then people don't realize what they say before they say it like do you not think before you talk??? And then people who get everything they want without working for it or being lucky enough to do something then shove it in your face like you care like no you're just a little brat who isn't humble you need to sit down... just everything is so freakin upsetting and triggering tf outta me... I'm done
If you been with me through the beginning... this account use to be named grays_biscuits_ when I only had 30 followers... now it's scutedolans_ and I've glowed up so much to 10.8k followers and the amount of DM's I get saying how people love my account and look up to me makes me feel so special because I know I'm making people smile and it's just wonderful to me how much I grew as a person and on this account... thank you guys for everything @ethandolan@graysondolan
Ok umm... you need to bippody boppody back tf out this fandom you trick a$$ bih... umm you don't realize what they're going through so you obviously need to be placed in their shoes... no you need to swap places with them cause they don't deserve your inconsiderate a$$ so shut yo bubble gum dumb dumb lookin a$$ up and exit to the left
You can tell they're not happy, last picture of Grayson, his smile looks so forced it's not how it use to be... I was literally thinking about this all day, thinking about if I were to meet them today I would just hug them, I wouldn't even ask for a picture, I would give them a long hug and tell them that I love them and I hope they feel better and tell them that things would get better, and if this fandom thinks that I need a picture to prove that I met them... wow... it's not bad to ask to take a picture, that's just what I would do, I'm glad to see their beautiful faces as well
This kinda pisses me off... I know they're just trying to spread the word to people but then again just leave him be and let him focus on trying to get better, I know it sucks for him to be in this mess but also seeing all this everywhere too? Just let him get better and leave him be.... that's just my opinion and if you have something to say that's negative you can keep scrolling and get out my face, I'm in no mood for people's bs, and I should be resting and not arguing with someone ignorance... @ethandolan#ethanstaystrong
Update: so right now i feel so weak and shaky, it's scary feeling like you can't get out of bed without falling, can barely type shaking so much and the constant tears coming out without me wanting to cry... what I want to tell you guys is through all the needles and the tests yesterday in the hospital, the twins helped me... I was terrified at first but then hearing their laughs and seeing their smiles in my head telling me that I'm gonna be fine well, I wasn't so scared anymore, they helped me go through everything yesterday along with you guys, even though I feel awful right now I can't help but smile thinking about them, thank you Ethan and Grayson for helping me through my awful trip to the ER... I love you guys so much @ethandolan@graysondolan tag please?
Hey guys I'm back! After 9 hours in the hospital being poked at all day with needles, doing so many tests I feel like a lab rat, and even 2 ultra sounds (I'm not pregnant lol) I'm glad to say that my appendix is fine and Its just a little cyst... imma be fine but man I'm I tired and irritable from everything I went through today... @ethandolan
Hey guys I'm off to the doctors... I'm kinda scared cause there's something wrong with my appendix and idk what's gonna happen or how long I might be gone... enjoy this edit that makes me smile @ethandolan@graysondolan creds @dolanbreezy