I was inspired by @emafton to reread my favorite book East of Eden (go read it now if you haven't) and just over 100 pages in this passage made me stop. I don't think it could ever stop being relevant:
"And this I believe: that the free, exploring mind of the individual human is the most valuable thing in the world. And this I would fight for: the freedom of the mind to take any direction it wishes, undirected. And this I must fight against: any idea, religion, or government which limits or destroys the individual. This is what I am and what I am about. I can understand why a system built on a pattern must try to destroy the free mind, for that is the one thing which can by inspection destroy such a system. Surely I can understand this, and I hate it and I will fight against it to preserve the one thing that separates us from the uncreative beasts. If the glory can be killed, we are lost." Carry on, warriors
"And then there are the cravings.. Oh, la! A woman may crave to be near water, or be belly down, her face in the earth, smelling the wild smell. She might have to drive into the wind. She may have to plant something, pull things out of the ground or put them into the ground. She may have to knead and bake, rapt in dough up to her elbows.
She may have to trek into the hills, leaping from rock to rock trying out her voice against the mountain. She may need hours of starry nights where the stars are like face powder spilt on a black marble floor. She may feel she will die if she doesn’t dance naked in a thunderstorm, sit in perfect silence, return home ink-stained, paint-stained, tear-stained, moon-stained." //
"If you have yet to be called an incorrigible, defiant woman, don’t worry, there is still time."
-Clarissa Pinkola Estés
There is something so fascinating about the pull towards events or phenomenons that cause us to feel insignificant. So often the things that make us feel small are the things that make us feel the most alive. Standing under the completely moon covered sun reminded me that we are tiny and expansive all at the same time. We feel our spirit or life force limitlessly existing within us and yet we are fully aware of our mortality.
Birthdays are nice markers to remember our progress. I find myself thinking about what I leave behind me and how I can better occupy my space on this planet. I'm thankful for the people and experiences that force me to expand and grow because it's way too easy to get stopped.
I hope we can remind one another that our deepest desires are valid and possible. I hope I can inspire others to recognize their power and to not shrink away from it, and I hope that we can all find ways to feel insignificant and infinite at the same time.